I saw us (poem)

I saw us in the reflection of a rippling tide,
But it passed, receded back into the deep.
A flicker of light, on a dark cold night,
I felt the candle’s warmth, and again I thought of you.
Time…the days and weeks, the seconds and years, they mesh into a jumbled mess,
They separate and drift, like shattered planks of a ruined ship, up and down the deep sea’s swells.
My mind is nothing but thoughts of you, feelings of you, memories of you…
My mind is nothing.
A fluttering leaf peels off from the branch where it grew, and it sways as it falls gently to the ground below.
And who is left? All of us.
And who is left? Not a single soul.
Are you with me? I wonder. I wonder if you wonder. Will I ever let it go?
For all the beauty I have written, and all the true things that I write,
Seem small and unimportant, unless you saw us too.